Coco told me yesterday that he misses going out. I told him I miss going out too. Then I suddenly had this guilt feeling because I know in my heart that I didn’t give him the best outdoor play that a kid would need. We don’t have spaces in our place where I can let him play. I don’t want him to play in the streets. I really didn’t make an effort to bring him to places, the last few months. I was lazy to go out or I don’t have extra. So much regrets.

Now it’s been almost 4 weeks since we have been in enhanced community quarantine and it’s been that long as well since Coco hasn’t come out of our unit. Sorry, Coco. I think nagkulang si mommy.

We don’t even know until when this pandemic will be. We don’t know what the new normal will be. But I promise, once everything is back to normal, or when we can now go out without getting scared of being infected of Covid19, I’ll see to it that Coco gets the best play ever and every time we will be out, he would tell me, “Mommy, this is theBest Day Ever!” Kahit araw araw niya sabihin yun.