i spent my Thursday watching the movies, Imagine Me & You, Memoirs of a Geisha and Princess Diaries 2 in Disney. it’s raining outside, that’s why i spent my day just watching movies. alam niyo yung Imagine Me & You? parang brokeback pero mga girls naman? hehe. ew. pero hindi siya yung kasi TODO ng Brokeback.
We had meeting last Friday with Caroline of SEE Foundation. i just can’t remember why i was in school. hehehe. yan lang naaalala ko. but i remember i was in school the whole afternoon. hahaha. oh yeah, when i got home, i accompanied ellai to Ever because she needs to buy something there and then we went to my house and just talked…..
Saturday, i had my midterms in Consumer Behavior — reporting, apparently, my beloved partner CES wasn’t able to attend class due to family emergency. so, then, i had my own presentation, at least i made my individual report in powerpoint. then, we went to JP’s house, supposedly it’s bonding time for AIESEC-ESA. but we were just 8 aiesecers plus halmen which is fine. we watched Failure to Launch and She’s the Man. then, we had our meeting for our WEEK 2 in PBOX. then, we ate dinner at Mcdo Katip.
So here, i’m spending half my Sunday here in an Internet cafe researching for my last coursework. and i think some resting when i get home.
na-feel niyo na ba yung tipong, meron kayong minahal almost all your life, then suddenly POOF. bigla yun mawawala. i’m not speaking of something romantic ha? tipong, iniwan mo kasi kailangan mo mag grow, kailangan mo ng distance, kailangan mo ng space. tipong mashado na maliit ang mundo para sa inyo. tapos biglang may someone na magsasabi sayo na “i chose to forget it. and it’s my choice” na ang totoo hindi ko naman talaga siya kinalimutan. at hindi lang alam ng tao kung gaano kasakit ang iwan ko yung taong yun. kahit alam ko wala man lang siyang ginawa para hindi umabot sa ganito. na, that was the very last thing i really wanted to do but i really have to. i should give that up. para kasi sa akin yun. para sa ikabubuti ko, para sa pagprotect ng sarili ko. we didn’t even got a chance to talk things up. hindi ko alam. hindi niya ako kinausap. kahit super dali naman akong ma-contact. masakit sa masakit. pero ganun eh. ayaw ko na sana magkaron pa ng connection between siya at ako. pero kanina, paggising ko, binigyan ako ni God ng sign na we really need to talk things up. we really need to clear everything. everything that happened. napaginipan kong naguusap kami dalawa. so, sign na siya for me. hindi ko rin ito hinihingi kasi sabi ko nga wala na rin akong balak. siguro, gusto lang talaga ito ni God na maayos na. para maging maplancha na rin yung naiwang gusot. hindi ko alam kung kailan ko siya makakausap, pero alam ko one of this days, magkakaron din ng chance. nagsignal na si God eh. i’m sure, kung hindi man mababalik yung dati, dahil nasira na nga, magiging magkaibigan pa rin kami. i hope. even though, super different na ngayon. because i already have my not so perfect but happy life.