Yesterday lang, naalala ko, nanood ako ng Abt Ur Luv na ito ang topic. Sabi ni Blue kay Hil, “If you really love him, then fight for him” him pertaining to Bill. Ito namang si Blue, me paganun ganun pang nalalaman, bakit siya hindi siya magfight? Sabagay, wrong move if he’ll fight for his love kay Hil. Pinagkatiwalaan eh. Siya nga si Dakilang Tulay eh. Hirap talaga maging tulay ano Blue, nahuhulog kasi. hahaha. Yung isa naman dun, type yung taken na, tapos para pa namang siyang totoy, sabi ba naman, “i’ll fight for my love!” amp. Tapos, brenda finally knows the truth about bill and hil, nun na niya nalaman, when umamin na rin si hil sa ate niya, and finally fought for it, it’s over na, it’s too late na. Looks like ito talaga ang uso ngayon ano?

Recently, I’ve been thinking about this too. You know what i just did? I just raised my white flag up to tell the world that i’ved retreat. Not because I’ve given up and hindi ko na kaya, not because meron siyang iba kasi wala naman, but bec of my own decision for i think it’s not going anywhere near the top.

That’s why, you see, my new layout here, Detachment: Pieces of My Heart. Detaching those precious pieces of my heart, not because I don’t love them anymore nor I don’t care for them anymore, but because I think that’s the right thing to do. May story pa nga ito eh, I’ve been looking for a new one kasi 3 days ago, kasi ayaw ko na si old one, since i’m like starting anew diba? Lahat ng gusto kong design ayaw, laging white lang siya lumalabas. So, I just gave up, then, the next day, I tried again, ganun pa rin tapos ang layo layo na ng inabot ko, page 27 na ata. Then, nilagay ko ito, finally! Eh i just randomly selected this one, nun tinitigan ko yung ichura, sabi ko, “This is Me. This is what i’m feeling!!!” Astig!

So, when do you really fight? When he makes you fall, and you do all the fighting? When wala namang nangyayari, will you still fight for it? Pano if wala ka naman palang pinaglalaban? pano kung yung dapat na kasama mo sa laban iba ang kasama? pano kung yung laban na ito di naman pala talaga dapat nangyari at the first place? Or what if you fight for it, when it’s already too late?

Just awhile ago, I read a blog post of a dear friend. She said that someone told her that she’ll be happier if she expresses her true feelings. then she asked if can she express her feelings now? Then, she texted me. Asking me what she would do? Hindi ko din alam isasagot ko sa kanya, kasi mahirap yung situation niya, merong iba eh. Tapos, I just “detached”; in my term. Sabi ko na lang, “sabi nga nila, fight for your love” dinagdagan ko ng galing sa aking puso, “but unfortunately, not all times you can fight for your it.“

Sabi din ni gwen sa abt ur luv, “sometimes hindi mo kailangang makipaglaban para maexpress mo ang love sa isang tao, hindi mo kailangang idefy ang kahit na sino or kahit na ano to win love, minsan kailangan mo lang maging strong tangapin kung ano makakapagpaligaya sa kanya, all else will follow.”