Finally, maluwag na ang aking loob. Everything I was hesitating to tell my bestfriend and everything i’ve been keeping from her, nasabi ko na sa kanya. I’m sorry for not telling you agad. You know naman why i’ve been really hesitating diba? Pero at least now you know na. everything i feel, i already revealed to you. wala na tinatago.

Thanks for understanding everything. Kung bakit hindi ko masabi sayo and all. Sorry kasi pinagworry ko kayong lahat yesterday, like what i told you, i just need time for myself and a different environment to make me think. Di ko na uulitin yun promise. Thanks kasi you will help me get through this. Thanks kasi you will be my strength now that i am weak, kaya nga natin theme song ang ‘Count on Me’ diba? Matatapos na rin ang lahat, okay na ako ngayon diba!

Kaya nga super lucky and blessed ko na meron akong bestfriend na katulad ni Cathy. Sabi nga niya sakin, praning na praning na daw siya dahil hindi nila alam kung nasan ako. Mababaliw na nga daw siya eh. Basta everything revealed na nga diba… ito na yung lalo pang magpapatibay ng friendship natin. Forever na nga tayo diba. Pero sobrang believe na talaga ako sa BF instincts niya sa akin. Super lakas grabe. She said she knew it all along. hahaha. love you. BFF! XD

after ng super tagal na usap namin sa fone, matutulog na sana ako, then nagawa ko na rin yung matagal ko ng gustong gawin. Yung 2 weeks ago ko pa talaga gustong gawin. Ang magkaron ng GOOD CRY. Maybe kaya ayaw mawala yung masakit na feelings kasi nga tinatago ko pa sa bestfriend ko eh. eh ang tagal tagal ko ng nile-let go yung feelings. kumusta naman yun diba? Si cathy nga talaga ang susi ng lahat.

Paggising ko kanina. I feel better. Ang luwag luwag na ng pakiramdam ko. Hindi na siya mabigat di tulad ng dati. Ramdam na ramdam ko pa yung parang may hole sa aking puso parang binaril. Nakabukas siya. Nafi-feel ko pa na yung feelings lumalabas dun sa butas na yun. At unti-unting naghi-heal. As of now, nararamdaman ko pa rin yung butas and I really feel empty. Siguro di pa siya tapos lumabas. Taking time siguro. Pero sure na ako na i’m okay na. i’ll be okay na! XD

Smile Gaux Smile!!!

Quote of the day ko from Kix: —— “Hope someday you’ll find the one you’re looking for, the one who will treat you right and love you more.. Someday you’ll see the love you’re destined to be with and when that time comes, i hope to see you.. happy.. finally.” Sige sige!!! i’ll wait for that too! oh divah!!! and may isa pa!!! “if you felt it, then it was true. getting hurt doesn’t always mean you suffered, it also means you loved sincerely.. don’t frown coz it’s over.. smile coz it happened.” Sige, i’ll smile. I’ll always remember that that chapter in my life happend. Wouldn’t regret that. XD